On the whole, I think RCIA has been a good experience for me. It has given me a chance to speak regularly about faith and God, and it has been the first time in my life I’ve ever been able to regularly be with other Christians (other than going to church services).  I feel like it has gotten easier for me to talk about and share my faith, and that is definitely a good thing.

My RCIA classes are somewhat frustrating though, because I sometimes feel like I am going to the church of Jiminy Cricket rather than the Catholic Church.  They are always very careful to say that you should follow your “well-formed” conscience, but that can be a very nebulous concept.  I understand the importance of a well-formed conscience, I just think that more (much more!) weight should be given to the teachings of the Bible and the Church.  I feel like the teachings are seen and presented as general guidelines or pointers rather than starting points for proper moral formation.  I feel like there is a sense that if you are not dissenting on something, then you must not be spending enough time thinking about the issues - sort of a paraphrase of the old bumpersticker - “if you aren’t dissenting, you aren’t paying attention!”  I also feel like they don’t give the church’s teachings much of a fair shake when presenting things they disagree with - I think they are trying to be fair, but sometimes I feel like they haven’t really considered the fullness of the Church’s teachings.  I had my second discernment meeting with my RCIA director yesterday, and I felt like I had to apologize for agreeing with Church teachings and for not having any major disagreements!

But all this being said, I do think they are trying to love God, and be that image of God to each other and the world.  They really are trying to follow God, and follow God’s path for them.   Even though they dissent sometimes from the Church, they have not been made bitter by this, and they are not angry dissenters.  They love the Church, and for the most part don’t wish to see it change - they just want to preserve their ability to see things differently.  I have learned some helpful things through this class, and the experience of discussing faith and getting to know some fellow Christians has been invaluable for me.   Even with all this, I am glad I am going through RCIA at this parish, and I am thankful for all the time and effort the people in this church put into this program.